Topic

Having clean desires and getting it.

• Looking back and not wishing what you should have done instead.
• Having a clean system which you atleast sticking to and constantly improving and all of your future atleast what to you want and it’s really easy.
• Having a guide through from 18-30 to get the max out of it and not be reactive and when you are living in first person mode you just its so blurry and fuck it’s like you are just like plastic bag going where ever the wind takes you.

Reason

• Regrets of past two years in Vidyo.
• Regrets of the past 5 months in lock down.

This is probably a brian dump.
So this is like you know to take out all the messy slime and just splashing it on to paper so that I can lead a clearer life. I have 100% assurance that what I know now I can easily get whatever I want. I just need a clean system and I just want to spill out the regrets and what should I have done instead and I also want to document my entire life cause I seriously don’t want to commit the same mistakes again and again I just want to keep on growing and make maximum utility out of the knowledge I have right now and the time/energy I will have in the future.

Vidyodaya: Early vidyo I should have not spent shit time/energy on stupid games like fortnite. I spent 3-4 months instead I could have just focussed on learning about businesses and studying. I am not kidding but right now studying was soo much better its like heaven for me as not only do you increase your value and your self respect I would probably get the girl I wanted all these years. I was toxicated to social media BS and I was a really negative person and I didn’t really express myself. I spent shit ton of time/energy on photography which was not really worth it. I made memories which I am proud of, the countless times we went out and had fun that was really memorable I loved every second of it. I think since my parents didnt give me enough money it was probably like easily I should have started earning money and really think instead of just hustling Gary vee’s mindset is fucked up. THere is nothing called everything becomes good at the end shit you have to make it good there is no 2 way around it.

Majority of time was on youtube crap and I did learn a lot like Grant cardone, Iman gadzhi and Calleb maddix and I should have just stopped and thought like how the fuck is anybody going to pay me anyway lol like wtf.

I spent soo much time
Purpose of this is take some time/energy and clearly wrong things so that you don’t have to write these things another time in distant future.

Remember there is no one to guide you other then yourself. You are your only saviour and the devil(sometimes.)

Now coming to post march where the fuck is your completion shit you worked so damn hard on that crap. Fine now 4 months where did it all go.

All due to some little thinking which you probably going to avoid evn if this weren’t for this post.

Obviously write good things also man.

But I proud of myself for the following reason I learnt soo many things and I have still so much and I have a framwork which I am going to improve on and nobody in my class nor this world has it. I am proud of myself for this. Today is 21 July 2020 and I want to see my future 25 years looking at this and being proud of 18 year old me for all the choices I have made.

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